I Only Believe in Myself

Conversation with Murielle Joudet

Author  Catherine Breillat and Murielle Joudet Translated by  Christine Pichini
I Only Believe in Myself

A long-form dialogue—on cinema and survival—with the visionary French filmmaker.

The virtuous always engage in a pseudoreligious morality. But there’s one thing they never say: the desire for pleasure is thought in motion. It’s what makes you transfigure a dull and repetitive sexual act into something that can bring you to ecstasy and an idea of eternity ...
—Catherine Breillat to Murielle Joudet

Catherine Breillat has always told just one story: her own, the story of a young girl whose existence was forbidden, who was, from childhood, cut in half, split between her mind and her sexuality, marked by the shame of being born female. She became a filmmaker at a time when choosing that vocation meant disobeying the world. 

During six months…