Publisher: Seal Books
New York Times bestselling author Joy Fielding delivers her most glamorous and intriguing book to date in a novel about the disappearance of a gorgeous young actress, and a mother whose life is thrown into turmoil as a result.

Losing Julia has become a constant in Cindy Carver’s life. The first time Julia disappeared, she was five years old and vanished at the playground. That inspired motherly paranoia. The second was when, at age fourteen, Julia decided to move in with her father. That broke Cindy’s heart. But when twenty-one-year-old Julia disappears without a trace after a promising audition with one of Hollywood’s most powerful and influential directors, Cindy begins a frantic search. Secrets are revealed, lives are forever altered, and Cindy is forced to acknowledge the disturbing truth about the young woman she realizes she never really knew....


"Has she ever done anything like this before?"

"You mean, stayed out all night?"

Neil nodded. He was sitting beside Cindy on one of two tan leather sofas in her living room. Behind them a wall of windows overlooked the spacious backyard. Facing them were three paintings of pears in varying...
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“Joy Fielding’s writing...is a cross between Margaret Atwood and Patricia Highsmith.. . . Once again, Fielding has created an unusual and compelling central character who is sure to mesmerize.”
The Globe and Mail