Looking for My Country

Finding Myself in America

Publisher: Vintage Canada
Renowned journalist and author of the international bestseller Wordstruck, Robert MacNeil reflects on a life lived between nations, and why he finally decided to call himself an American.

Growing up in Halifax during World War II, it seemed to Robert MacNeil that nothing of significance ever happened in Canada. From his mother’s obsession with all things English (even the marmalade) to his own love for American music like Rhapsody in Blue, Canada seemed too small, too parochial for his ambitions. Moving to Britain in his mid-twenties, MacNeil was suddenly exposed to a country with thousands of years of history, extraordinary theatre and culture. But it was in America that MacNeil finally found his country -- America, a land of contrasts and possibilities.

A journalist for NBC and later for PBS on the MacNeil/Lehrer NewsHour, MacNeil was a witness to many of the current events that shaped the last century: the erection of the Berlin Wall, Kennedy’s election and assassination, the Cuban Missile Crisis, Watergate and finally September 11, 2001. As the well-respected and trenchant news reporter brought world issues to the American public, he discovered that his Canadian values and upbringing allowed him some valuable detachment and perspective. And when MacNeil returned to Nova Scotia after 40 years, he found his country of birth much changed -- multiculturalism and diversity had caused Canadian culture to blossom in his absence.

With charm and warmth, but also with a piercing eye on the century, MacNeil looks at the meanings of patriotism, nationalism and home, and explains why he finally made the decision to become an American citizen.

Excerpt from Looking for My Country
I grew up in a nation trying to build a distinctive culture in an environment that constantly threatens extinction, physical from the north, and political/cultural from the south. Each fear, in its own way, reinforces the other. The inhospitality of the northern climate induces Canadians to drift southwards and the magnet of American material prosperity and opportunity reinforces that urge. Yet the fear of being swallowed, ingested by the American leviathan, makes Canadians draw back, shrinking from the smothering embrace, to find a source of national pride and identity in overcoming the natural human fear of perishing in frozen wastes. Peter Gzowski, the late, beloved CBC radio host, once ran a contest which produced this inspired response, “As Canadian as possible under the circumstances.”

From the Hardcover edition.



In the winter of 1942, a couple of months after Pearl Harbor, I wrote to President Roosevelt.

I was eleven, living in Halifax, Nova Scotia. It was the third year of war for Canada, and our strategic port was a vital assembly point for convoys crossing the Atlantic to keep Britain's...
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“…an entertaining and thought-provoking excursion through [MacNeil’s] life.…MacNeil is a fine writer and he has crafted an intelligent and insightful book that captures an era of world events from someone sitting in a front row seat.”
The Globe and Mail

“As might be expected from a newsman whose balanced approach has made him the thinking man’s television journalist, the book is articulate and reasoned.”
The Edmonton Journal

“Gracefully written and pleasing in its insights and bemusements, MacNeil's memoir is a cut above the pack.”

“I have long known MacNeil to be a thoughtful reporter and a good writer. It is the passion here that makes the difference. This is the psychological journey of a somewhat cool Canadian who comes over time to be deeply affected by the human reality of America in ways he had not anticipated. It is very moving being on the journey with him.”
—Peter Jennings, ABC News

"How nice for this country that Robert MacNeil, after many, many years, became an American citizen. And, how lucky for us that he decided, in this charming, thoughtful, very nuanced book, to tell us why he did it, what is special about America, and what pulled him to becoming one of us."
—David Halberstam

“A deft, entertaining memoir, and an engagingly honest exploration of how a man comes to understand something about himself and his loyalties.”
—Alice Munro

“Robert MacNeil’s quite wonderful new memoir. …. A considered, thoughtful and disciplined book.”
—Noah Richler, National Post

“[A] conversational and appealing memoir”
The Washington Post

“[A] compellingly readable account of a life in news. … [A] fascinating tale of politics and broadcasting with some personal history to boot.”
The Sun Times (Owen Sound)

“The author of three novels and two previous memoirs has written an unassuming, nicely qualified valentine to his adopted country, a book that feels Canadian in tine and like a New Yorker’s in spirit. Which makes perhaps the best argument for one of MacNeil’s points — that there are, after all, many ways to be American.”

“This book is a poignant memoir and a piercing analysis revealing his complex and frequently contradictory feelings about becoming a United States citizen.”
The Pictorial Gazette (Connecticut)

[T]his is a thoughtful and intelligent examination by a nationally famous import who found his place in a land of immigrants.”
Publishers Weekly

Praise for the works of Robert MacNeil:
“[Wordstruck] draws us into an appreciation of language that seems rare in this crass and overbearing age. . . . Mr. MacNeil makes his readers care.”
The New York Times Book Review

“Robert MacNeil . . . has written a book that’s a love letter to the English language and, at the same time, something of an autobiography. [Wordstruck is] a beautiful little book.”
Quill & Quire

Wordstruck heads straight for the heart.”
San Francisco Chronicle

“[Burden of Desire is] a powerful piece of work . . . a tremendous story.”
The Washington Post Book World

“[With Burden of Desire] Robert MacNeil . . . proves himself a novelist of both large and subtle gifts. . . . A perfect fusion of events and character. . . . Riveting.”
Chicago Tribune

From the Hardcover edition.